That Was Painful...

...but I needed to hear it.

The past few weeks I have been struggling to restart...but if you read this blog regularly, you already know that.  I have been finding myself laying awake at night frustrated with how far I have let myself slip back into old habits.  Yes, I would even get worked up to the point where I couldn't get back to sleep.  I have even gone as far as to avoid my devotions on occasion because the conviction was too great.  But today, after having a check up at the doctor's office where I heard some pretty hard things to hear, I realized that I just need to start over.  Completely.  Start where I am and not focus so much on where I was last summer.  I can't change the choices I have made in the past, but I can surely make the right choices now.  I went to my Weight Watchers Online page and wiped the slate clean and I am ready to start at my present weight.  It may sound weird, but to do that helped me move forward.  I recorded my weight from the doctor's office as my start weight and am planning my next weigh in on September 6th because this Friday is only a few days away.  My doctor wants to see me again in 6 months and I think it will help to have that as an additional motivating factor.  We spent quite a while talking about what I need to do to get back on track and I am thankful to have a doctor isn't always in a rush to move on to the next patient.  

As I thought about all this today, this verse came to mind:  Romans 6:12 "Let not sin therefore reign in your mortal body, that ye should obey it in the lusts thereof."  If I stay where I am, I am letting sin control my choices.  I can start over and no longer let sin reign.  There is joy in obedience.